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Archive for May, 2010

I Need Charging

I went to the psychiatrist today.  Just a periodic check-in, but it came at a good time. 

The first thing I asked him was to check back into my file and see how past Mays have gone.  Last year was fine.  The year before:  very tired, sleeping a lot, weepy, losing patience quickly, etc.  I said, “Uh, yeah.  Check.  Check.  Check.  Check.” 

As I’ve mentioned, I’ve been on a roller coaster for the last few weeks.  And, I’m about ready to shout, “Stop the ride!  I wanna get off!”After expressing my concern to the doctor, and telling him that I was very anxious about increasing the dosage of my medication, he suggested adding Lithium to the batch.  Oh, sure.  What’s one more pill?  Good grief.  I got teary-eyed and told him I was a little scared.  I was reaching the maximum dose of Lamictal (a mood-stabilizing drug), and so that’s why he’s suggesting Lithium (another mood-stabilizer).  I told him, “You know, I’m 43, and I’m almost at the limit of Lamictal, and now we are adding Lithium.  I’m scared about what the future will mean.  Will I be on 56 different drugs?”  He smiled and said, “Moods are not static.  They change, and so we need to adjust when they do change, so that you can level off again.  And, hey, let’s think positive, this may work!”  Then he told me of a patient that was on all kinds of mixtures and wasn’t doing well.  Probably headed for the hospital (aka looney bin).  Not exactly what I wanted to hear, since that was what kind of scares me.  He was telling me this, though, because he wanted me to know there are lots of things to try.

So, yep, I’m going to start supplementing my current drugs with Lithium.  Yep.  Like the battery.  Right off the Periodic Table.  AND, it’s been used in thermonuclear weapons!  Neat!  It’s also the original mood-stabilizer.

When I went to fill the prescription at the pharmacy, I suddenly felt very self-conscious.  Uh-oh, now this chick knows I’m nuts.  Then, I had to smile.  I think I’d rather be picking up a prescription for Lithium than one that is used to treat an STD.

Is that Pollyanna-y enough for you?

What a Wimp!

No, I’m not going to rant today, I’m going to promote the website wimp.  I’ve been debating about whether or not to share it, and that is why I didn’t do this yesterday even though I usually give you a website to check out.  But, this morning, the latest video made me teary-eyed, so that was my sign that I just had to share.  My son turned me on to this site (of course) and shares quite a few of the videos.  Some are just “okay” while others are clever, fascinating, or just plain funny.  So, even though you may have to sort through some that you don’t really care for, the next ones may just blow your socks off.

This site adds several videos a day, so it can be tough to keep up with, if you want to see everything.  However, nothing says you have to do it all in one sitting.  And, again, sometimes the title tells you enough that you know you want to skip it. 

I have no idea why it is called “wimp,” but I really don’t care.  It can entertain me for hours.  Not that I watch it for that long, of course.  I have housework I need to do!  (yawn)

Here are a few of my favorites that will show you the range of what you can find here:

Wimp finds videos that are posted worldwide on other sites, and shares the interesting ones.  So, some you may have already seen elsewhere.  But, honestly, this is a great go-to site when you just want to be entertained for a few minutes.  And, best of all–suitable for all ages!  (By the way, I’m not an “animal person,” but for those of you that are, don’t worry, there are plenty of cat and dog videos.)

It’s All Good

Just a quick update:  I am feeling much better now.  I think hormones had a lot to do with the unusual roller coaster ride of the last several days.  Yes, even after the hysterectomy, there are still times of the month that I am affected.  And, the second week of the month is about that time.  I haven’t had that for a couple of months, though, so I didn’t think about it at first.

So, it was probably a combo of the bipolar/hormone thing.  But, I can feel myself climbing out of the hole, and quite rapidly.  (Having brunch with my wonderful parents helped immensely!)

Thank you for your thoughts and prayers!  They worked!

No Pity Parties, Please

Just as I was about to feel bummed about having some emotional issues due to my bipolar disorder, I looked back on my blog to see when I last felt this way.  OVER A YEAR AGO!  (Well, at least that was the last time I felt the need to blog about it, and even then the post was about changing medication.)  How blessed I am!

That being said, here are the thoughts that have run through my head in the last 48 hours:

  • I’m so tired.
  • I wish I could have just one day to experience what it is like to be bummed, but not in a deep, dark hole.
  • Why can’t I just bounce back from all this?
  • Happy crying
  • Sad crying
  • Frustrated crying
  • Get over yourself, girl!
  • I want to eat the entire pantry.
  • I don’t want to bring anyone else down with this.

Yeah, a little whack, I know.  But, just blogging about it makes me feel better.  This roller coaster has been going on for about a week.  A week.  I think I can handle a week once a year.  As long as I focus on the fact that it will go away.  As long as I let Tom know what is going on.  (I did that this morning.  I don’t know why I wait.  He’s always so understanding.  I think part of it is that I feel bad enough dealing with it myself that I keep hoping I won’t have to bother him with it.)

So, don’t expect an invitation to my pity party.  I won’t be hosting one after all.

Now Why Didn’t I Think of That?

Graffiti and defacing signs is illegal, so, kids, don’t try this at home.  That being said, today’s site shows us just how creative a mind can be.  You know how you can look at a cloud and make it out to look like an object?  These creative folks look at signs we see every day and turn them into something that makes you think, “Ha!  I never thought of that!”  WARNING:  Some pictures on this site are not rated G.  Still, the majority of them are safe to view.  All my examples are definitely G-rated.

These are actual signs, not Photoshopped. 

Some of these are obviously well-thought out, and the artist has gone to a lot of trouble to create the “hack.”  Such as this one, titled “The Origin of Religion.”  Some are warning signs that when read, could definitely have another meaning, (and this is when I think, “Why didn’t I think of that?”).  Can’t go wrong with Googly Eyes for a laugh!

Then, of course, there is the age-old, standard spray paint.  But, seriously, think of how long this took to make!  Not to mention just coming up with the idea! 

Or, just use a marker when you have a spur-of-the-moment idea.  How many of us have seen this sign, and never thought twice about it?  I’m guessing that the next time you’ll see it, you’ll think of this.  (Snakes.  Why did it have to be snakes?)

And, finally, just a piece of paper can change your viewpoint, and give you a giggle.   This one reminded me of when I was in college, living in the dorm.  We had two elevators.  Someone made signs and taped one above each.  “Ella” and “Darth.”  Made me smile every day.

So, sign up now, to get a laugh or two each day.  (Okay, that pun needed work.  A LOT of work.)

A Recipe for Mrs. Field’s Cookies Provided by a Nigerian Prince!!!!!

Oh, e-mail hoaxes!  How often we are sucked into your evil plots.

Today’s web site is helpful when you get an email that has been forwarded to you by a good friend or family member, and you think, “I don’t think so, but maybe…”   Snopes has been around since Al Gore invented the internet.

I’ll tell you, that I’ve pretty much given up telling certain people that their forwarded emails are hoaxes. (Unless it involves money or a reason to be frightened.)  I’ve told them several times to check the web site before they send these because I’ve checked and the story they sent me (and countless others) just isn’t true.

Having been a fan of urban legends for almost 20 years, I find some of these kind of interesting.  The Mrs. Field’s cookie story has been around for a number of years.  Before that, it was a Neiman Marcus cookie recipe, and apparently, before that it was a red velvet cake recipe.  This is one of those stories that makes you feel good because finally someone got revenge on a large corporation.  Unfortunately, it’s just not true. 

Other hoaxes just look for suckers to believe their story in order to make money off of the reader/participant.  Hence, the Nigerian Prince email.  Just like your parents warned you, “If it seems too good to be true, then it probably is.”  This type of scam is multiplying rapidly and we can thank the internet for that one.

A lot of political ones are spreading like wildfire as well.  If you are unhappy with the government, pass along those rumors, people!  Regardless of which party is in the White House or Congress, these babies seem to have a mind of their own and are quickly shared. 

Lately, I’ve noticed several emails have started with, “I checked this out on snopes.com and it is REAL!”  Well, the problem with that is the sender (your friends) has not checked Snopes, they just forwarded the email from their friend, believing it was true because it said it had been checked out. 

Before I go, I must share with you my favorite urban legend.  This one was around before the internet existed, and a guy I worked with was just sure it was true.  It happened to a friend of a friend!  (Those of us that keep up with urban legends call these FOAF stories.)  Conveniently, you see, no one ever knows the actual person involved, so it is nearly impossible to trace the story back to a reliable source.

So, please check out the site before you start looking under your car in a parking lot or pass that warning onto your friends and family members.  Otherwise, if you read enough of these, you’ll never leave the house!

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