Don’t worry. The tote board is still moving along. Day 5. Woo hoo!
However, (and as one of my favorite comedians says, “Nothing good comes after ‘however.'”) this weekend I pushed it to the limit. And, now I know why I have put these limits on myself.
I was Sunday School Superintendent before the Loony Bin. I, obviously, had to give that up afterward. I spent the first five months of the year attending the adult classes and having no responsibility. I enjoyed that quite a bit, but I missed the kids. I missed teaching. Before motherhood, I was a 2nd grade teacher, and I just loved it. I’m glad I quit to stay home and raise my own kids, but I love interacting with other children and teaching them. So, Sunday School filled that need/desire in my life. Then, this summer, I told the current superintendent that I would be glad to help plan VBS, and take a turn teaching Sunday School this summer. That worked out great. I really enjoyed it. I then helped plan the fall classes and have been able to teach with one of my best friends. Even more fun than the summer!
Then, this Sunday, the superintendent was going to be gone, and asked me if I thought I could handle being in charge. I thought, “Sure. Why not? We already know what we are going to do, and even though we will have all the classes together, it surely isn’t a big deal.” BUZZZZZZZ. Unfortunately, one of the games we were going to play was a much bigger deal than I expected. My mindcould NOT figure out how to make it work. (It was kind of like a cross between Pictionary and Telephone.) My parents tried to help me, and we came up with a plan. Then, last night I worked until midnight cutting paper, trying to come up with ideas for drawing, etc.
My daughter and I got to church in plenty of time for me to explain to the assistants what we would be doing and how they could help. I started the class by conducting a review of the past lessons. That went pretty well. Then, I passed off the class to another teacher who summarized her lessons as well. So far so good. Next, came “THE GAME.” It became a MUCH bigger deal than I even expected. Kids not listening. Adults becoming confused, even though I thought I had explained it to them. Wow. The part that my parents and I had figured out, totally went haywire. Completely failed. Mayhem ensued. My brain was going nuts! We had ten minutes left of class and absolute chaos.
Finally, the adults helped and we got it all figured out. The game ended as it was supposed to. (Thank you, Lord Jesus!) The kids thought it was fantastic, and one boy even understood why we played it in the first place. HALLELUJAH!!!! Anyone who doesn’t believe God exists, wasn’t in this class to see the miracle take place.
That kind of thing could have happened to anyone, and I realize that. The way I could tell I had taken it too far was at church, following Sunday School. I play the drums for our service. It is truly one of the highlights of my week. I feel uplifted and that lasts well into the middle of the week. Today, I just wasn’t feeling it. I played just fine. My heart and body just weren’t into it. A couple of songs lifted me up, but then, I felt my insides just droop. I started singing along (which I don’t normally do. I am not miked, so it really doesn’t matter whether I do or not) and that helped a little. I tried to focus, but I just couldn’t. I was completely exhausted. Inside and out.
Karen and I were driving home, and she, of course, asked about eating out, and suggested McDonald’s drive-thru. I told her I was hungrier than that and would prefer a place that served breakfast. She’s not a big fan of breakfasts (gets that from her dad), so she was out of ideas. I just didn’t feel like trying to come up with a place, so I told her we’d just drive through McDonald’s andI didn’t get anything. Just too tired. (Don’t worry. I ate when I got home. I know that eating is only second to sleeping as far as triggers go.)
I’m not down or anything now. And, I was never down today. Just tired. Very tired. I am really looking forward to tomorrow when I get my day off. And, actually, I don’t have any real responsibilities this week, so I am looking forward to that as well.
I think it is time to go and order a pizza. Delivered.