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Archive for August, 2008

Deep Thoughts by Zuzu

I was just helping my son with his homework.  I needed a book to put my scratch paper on so I could match answers with him.  I grabbed one out of the basket by my chair.  It was called Becoming a Woman of Influence  by Carol Kent.  I picked it up at some Women of Faith conference where Carol spoke.  She is an amazing woman and a fantastic speaker.  If you ever get a chance to hear her, I highly recommend that you do.

After I finished helping him, I noticed that there was some papers sticking out of the book.  I pulled them out and they were notes from the conference.  There was a little “diddy” I had written in a corner that caught my eye. 

All sunshine makes a desert.

Wow.  I never thought of that.  No one really likes to endure tough times, but we all do.  Some have tougher times than others, to be sure.  But, what if you never had a bad day?  Would you ever appreciate the good days?  I doubt it.  I mean, do you appreciate the fact that you have a floor beneath your feet and not dirt?  Probably not.  We take it for granted.  But, if you lived in a grass hut in the darkest of Africa, you would most likely be grateful for a solid floor beneath your feet, if you ever got one.

  • A side note–My family does come inside from a hot day and announce, “Thank you, Dad, for air conditioning!”  This is something that I used to do when I was a little girl with my family.  We were so happy to come into a cool home, and knew that there were certainly people out there that didn’t have that luxury.

A song I love by Switchfoot is The Shadow Proves the Sunshine.  This song helped me through my bouts of depression and the medication games.  I still sing it when I am going through a tough time.  Think about it.  You cannot have shadows without a light source.  So even when you are down and going through a dark time in your life, you need to remember that God is still there.  God is our source of light during those times, and if he didn’t exist or had forgotten you, then there wouldn’t be a shadow.  Just darkness.

There are a lot of people out there that go through more than you or I could even imagine.  I have a friend who seems to constantly find out there is something wrong with one of her two sons.  It is never something as simple as a broken leg.  Oh no.  There are always many, many tests to be done.  Several specialists to visit, etc.  She seems to always be in a good mood.  And when you ask her how she is doing, she always says, “Oh, hanging in there!” with a smile.  Of course, if you ask her about her sons, she will tell you the latest saga.  But, from the outside, you would never know what all is going on in her life.  I once said to her, “You know how the Bible says that God will never give you more than you can handle?  Did you ever wish that you weren’t so strong?”  She laughed.

So, the next time you are feeling all dark, depressed, or down, just remember today’s quote:  ALL SUNSHINE MAKES A DESERT.  (and remember, too–“desert” has one “s” and “dessert” has two, because you always want more of it.)  Wow.  Two lessons for the price of one today!

May God bless you all.

Thinking (not singing) in the Shower

I usually think a lot in the shower.  I don’t know why.  Maybe it is because I don’t have anything else to look at, enclosed in that “just bigger than a voting booth” space, other than my body (shiver).  Maybe it the relaxing warm water.  But, somehow, I always come up with something to blog about.

Then I get out.

Apparently, drying myself off also wipes away any memory I have of what I was thinking in the shower.  I know I had a great idea (or at least a good one) for today.  No idea what that might have been.  None.  I even had a great ending sentence!  Mind.  Blank.

So this morning, I’ve been trying to remember.  Let’s see…I walked.  Nope, that wasn’t it.  I cleaned the basement a little.  Nope.  Already wrote about that.  The exterminator is coming to give us a bid on getting rid of the fleas in our yard.  YUCK!  Definitely not it.  I just finished the book Twilight, but this isn’t a blog about books.  I know  it wasn’t about the Democratic National Convention or anything political.  You don’t need me to tell you who I’m going to vote for and why.  Who do you think I am?   George Stephanopoulos?  (And, yes, I had to look up the spelling of his name.  Can you imagine having a crush on him and writing that name all over your spiral notebook?  Wow.)

So, other than to let you know that after my last blog, I didn’t drink coffee for 5 days and just now get back to you.  I just don’t remember what I was going to treat you to today. 

Oh, well, I’ll think of it eventually.  Probably the next time I’m in the shower.  Besides, unlike many electrical products, this laptop did not come with the warning Do Not Use in Bathtub so I am certain it is safe.

I’m Still Here

I haven’t been on here for awhile.  No real reason, really.  Kind of tired.  Not sure what to blog about.  The Olympics are on.  (No, I have to be honest, that last one hasn’t factored in.  I haven’t been watching.  I know.  I know.  I’m some kind of unpatriotic loser.  Whatever.  It’s just not my thing.)

Just wanted to let you know that if you want to learn how to unclog a toilet, I did add the link to the video I saw on my Josephine the Plumber blog.  Thanks, Sara, for suggesting it.  Now I know how to add links to my blogs. 

I will add that yesterday I went to go get gas since my “You Are Running on Fumes” light came on in the van.  I had obviously picked the pump that someone had just topped off.  (I know it wasn’t you, Lynn!)  I stood there, and stood there, and stood there.  Click..Click..Click.  I was getting so frustrated I thought I was going to scream, “IDIOTS!” at the top of my lungs.  But, I didn’t.  I just took the nozzle out, placed it back into the island, and quit.  How irritating was it?  Well, my bill was $1.50.  No lie.  Let’s see, that’s not even half a gallon.  Oh, well.  It got me where I needed to go before I had to push the van off to the side of the road and call AAA.  Unbelievable!  PLEASE DO NOT TOP OFF!  You never know when someone with bipolar disorder will be the next customer, and you have just pulled the pin out of the hand grenade that we call our lives.  KA-BOOM!

Well, I’m going to go drink my morning coffee, sit and plan out my day, then I will be be back with an update on my latest therapy appointment.  SO HELPFUL!  (and, as many have mentioned, will save you money and time, since you may learn something without having to go in yourself!)

Oh No! Not Another List!

Yep.  Another one.

Things I dislike:

  1. Getting my feet muddy.
  2. Taking long showers.
  3. Hot tea.

Things I like:

  1. The smell of a hot car.
  2. A fire in the fireplace.
  3. When my husband comes home and gives me a kiss.

I’m Hooked on These Lists

Things I dislike:

  1. Dinners that take much longer to prepare than they do to actually eat.
  2. The first night of the season that it is the perfect temperature to open the windows and waking up with a nasty headache.
  3. DVDs without gag reels.

Things I Like:

  1. Metamucil wafers (taste good and work!)
  2. Being the first one to put a knife in the peanut butter jar.
  3. An empty trashcan.

Things I Love/Hate Part II

Things I Like:

  1. Mr. Clean Magic Eraser
  2. Finding so many of my favorite students on Facebook
  3. Salt and Pepper Pistachios

Things I Don’t Like:

  1. The way David Caruso stands whenever he talks, and how he either takes off his sunglasses or puts them on after he makes a statement.
  2. Hot weather (We’ve been lucky this year.)
  3. Fitted sheets that don’t stay fitted during the night.

Things I Hate/Like

I remember when reading the Mitford series of books, that Father Tim’s girlfriend/wife would always tell three things she liked and three that she didn’t.  I always thought that was really cool.  Cool because she wouldn’t dwell on the things she didn’t like.  She balanced out the good and the bad.  Kind of like playing the Pollyanna Glad Game.  (which I try to do in most circumstances.)  In fact, once I was so cold when we were camping, that I was miserable.  I even went to sleep in the van, and it wasn’t much warmer in there.  I was miserable and thought morning would never come.  I played the glad game with myself and thought, “Hey, people in concentration camps don’t get a break when dawn comes.”  Kind of extreme I know, but it helped.

So today, in honor of Cynthia Coppersmith, here are my three likes and dislikes:

I don’t like:

  1. People that park in handicapped parking spaces that aren’t handicapped.
  2. When people don’t say “thank you” when you hold the door open for them.  (I want to say, “You’re welcome, Your Majesty!”
  3. Mushy peas

Things I like:

  1. Smell of cookies baking.
  2. Going out to eat with friends.
  3. Going barefoot in the spring and summer.

Once a week, think about three things you like and three you don’t.  I’d love to hear from you!

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